How Much Do You Suffer?

Well tonight it is after 10p.m. and I’m still up! Why? My suffering is so excruciating intense that I’m not sure what to do. I know if I go to bed I will just get annoyed….but if I stay up…then I will be exhausted tomorrow! The good news is that tomorrow I get to leave work at 2:00p.m.!!! The bad news is I have to go get shots! Not that shots are bad but I HATE shots with a passion! I’m praying for calmness as I get the first round of Hep A and Hep B! Tuesday I go to the CDC approved location to the Yellow Fever shot! Such fun getting ready to go to Africa!

Oh nights like tonight I can not help but wonder the challenges I will face both spiritually, emotionally and most of all physically! I know that this opportunity for me is once in a lifetime! Although to be honest if I could go again I would totally do it! I know many people are very unsure what to do with my disease, in fact today I found out that I was un-insurably beause of my disease! Do you know how awful it is to find out that a company feels that your disease is terminal therefore they will not insure you? I understand that my disease is terminal and I have to learn to live my life adjusting to it…but darn to have a company feel you won’t live long enough to make a policy worth it…dang! The good news is that for some reason (I’m not sure why) I went ahead and got a policy for myself when I was 19! Little did I know that by 21, I would have a life marred with a disease like RA and Fibromyalgia.

Matt and I have spent our evenings this week with our College Ministry! It been great starting the beginnings of relationship with some awesome young adults! We are blessed to be where God has us and only hope that we can be the testimonies that we need to be in order to bring honor and glory to the Lord! It is him that we want to honor not ourselves! It has truly been a test for me because especially working long hours, my body is worn out and in significant pain! BUT the good news is I always enjoy myself and only hope that I am touching some one’s life!

Tomorrow night it is bible study! YAY!  Mid- week bible study is sooo good especially in this crunch time where I am sadly struggling to do my own Bible study! I am hoping to get back on that wagon this weekend! That is my goal. Also after this week my goal is to not work over-time! HURRAY! I will enjoy going to work at 6:30p.m. and leaving on time! It will be awesome! Thankfully thought this comp time has really helped me NOT need a lot of vacation for Africa! YAY!

The good thing is that things are going…the hard thing is that my life is still so very painful! Tonight I think my pain levels are about an 8.5-9/10. That means to you that every joint and muscle in my body feels stretched, swollen, hot and I’m in so much pain there really is no word. However, again the good news is that I can still SMILE!

Back to internet surfing! 🙂 NIGHT WORLD!!!

I’ll try and post shot pictures!!!!

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