Today was one of those non-stop days! I woke up and headed staight to the shower. After getting ready I drove 30 minutes to meet a cohort member. Then we drove up to the main campus and spend about 4.5hrs there. We listened to our first dissertation proposal defense and experienced what it will be like for us when we get to that stage. It was great to meet members of additional cohort’s who are at a different level than us. You learn to ask as many questions as possible. One of our senior professors walked us through the department and showed us some of the labs and other equipment we have available to us. Overall, it was a fantastic experience!
Every day it seems I sepnd sooooooooooooooooooo much time on homework but I am amazed at all that I learn! I have realized that this degree is so prestigous because you have to do so much work. It is certainly a marathon. It does not matter your skills as much as your determination! You have to keep fighting for what you want that is for sure.
The pain has been incredible! Not being on medication has been so hard. I have learned to rest as much as possible. I have learned to let things go I cannot change because honestly I do not need the stress. Most importantly I have learned to let people’s comments to slide off my back.
The long and the short of it is that people probably will NEVER understand. It does not mean that the cannot understand it is that they do not have a push to understand. Well why? because they do not suffer like you and me. Is that frustration??? YES VERY! But is that something I need to stress about…???? NO it is not!
I am instead going to use my energy to focus on my education, to focus on my marriage and my service to my community.
One last thing I am going to mention is that I made my first contanct with my first hospice patient this week! I am so touched to be a part of this families life! It is hard to see them struggling with an impending loss…but amazing to be the helping hand at this difficult time .Do something for someone else this weekend!
Keep those of who are suffering in your prayers! I know I certainly need it…this week has been tough and it seems to just get tougher the longer I am off medicine.