Is it just me or when the pain is so bad ….sometimes even thinking about what you want to eat is hard! The last few days my pain has increased tremendously….probably because of all the school work and stress. But it is soooo extremely hard to concentrate when your body feels just broken!
Earlier this week I was thinking in my mind…what all hurts. I made a list – ankles, toes, knees, hips, wrists, thumbs, fingers, shoulders, back. I look at my list and wonder…what joints in my body don’t hurt yet? Key work is “yet.” And then the thought…wow one day everything will possibly hurt…but at the same time today it feels like EVERYTHING does hurt!
Pain does amazing (yet awful) things to your thinking! It could be me but some days I feel exhausted…the lack of sleep because of pain does not help but the pain (even with some rest) is just draining! I some days feel like …why do I get up. I am gaining nothing but a new view (either my living room, my bedroom, my office, etc.) but I am STILL hurting!
The hot shower, the icey hot, it does not matter..no matter what I do…I still hurt! You want to know one of my dreams….I dream that one day we do not have to hurt anymore. And we do not have to take medication that will kill us to do it! Dreams right! one day 🙂
So yet again I am resting on my lovely couch, hurting so badly that I can hardly think…but one positive that I can think about..I am not ALONE!