I woke up today to pouring rain outside! It was a deluge that seemed to never end. I was able to lay in bed and listen to the rain and thunder, my train of thought on sporadically interrupted by my cats howling their dislike of the rain! Oh well…I had to take today slow…my body has given me MAJOR warning signs that either I slow down or I may end up seriously sick. I think it is a combination of the stress from class, the lack of sleep (unstable sleeping schedule) and all the pain/fatigue. There is only so much pushing my body can handle before I just need to stop and take a breath
So today was my stopping to take a breath day! I slept in, watched Netflix and finally after being bored…I dragged my mini-proposal documents to my bed and edited my paper. I like the end result, just another sign that after every edit your end result gets better and better. I guess it is the same with our trials in life…we learn (at least I do) that after the trial…I have gained so much strength and perspective. I learn that every valley I walk through strengthens my faith, my relationship with prayer and God and the things in life that are important to me. My life (as the constant edited paper) is definitely going to be interesting whenever I get done with school and start the next thing.
I decided today that if I manage to finish my doctoral program…I should write a book on doing so while battling RA and Fibro! How does that sound! I want people to know that just because you have two horrible painful, debilitating diseases…life does not have to end. Use your life, the time you can move and do things, to better yourself. The disease can NEVER take away what you have learned and what you have learned about yourself.
I have learned so much about myself these last 7 years I have been earning degrees. I hope to learn much more in the next 4 years while I am finishing my LAST degree. I hope to encourage and inspire people to live for their dreams…not matter the hard hand you are dealt in life. I want people to know that we can still gain our dreams despite our pain!