I wish life sometimes would slow down! Wouldn’t that be lovely….if only we could pause time and a take a NICE LONG nap! HAH! What would be do…I have caught myself thinking the past two days – if only I had more time in the day…if only I could get more sleep….if only I did not hurt so bad! So many “if only’s!” But the reality is “if only” is just that “if only!” Life does not stop, the hours, the minutes and the days go by and yes we still have to learn to live despite our stress, our struggles and our pain!
I have spent so much time the past few weeks digging into statistics! I am so thankful that it is something I can learn by spending time and effort on the problems! Thankfully – variance, range, standard deviation, and z-scores are something I can understand and figure out now! YAY ME!! But I still need to work on the APA writing up of the analysis and how to put into words what I find in numbers!
I am finished! YES FINISHED! With my packet for the American Association of Hispanics in Higher Education fellowship application! I am waiting on one final piece to be reviewed and then I will submit. Then one more conference proposal and the waiting begins. I will probably know about the AAHHE by November and the SERA proposal by November. The good thing is these experiences have grown me tremendously! WOW I did not know how much work it takes to do this stuff but with time management and people’s help…things are getting done. The waiting though can be nerve-wracking too although in my defense this time of year…I could probably forget about it because I have so much else to do!
One thought that I spend time thinking about over the weekend….how often do we get emails,notes, messages and we spend time worrying about what will happen? I am one of those people if you send me a message, email, or voicemail that says that we need to talk …my first instinct is OH MY GOSH WHAT IS WRONG! Then I spend all the time up until the meeting/response wondering what is going on, relieving every thing I have done in the past, and honestly searching for what may have gotten me that type of message! Worry and anxiety flow from those type of messages, at least they do for me! But you know I realize this weekend, why should I always think things are bad? Negativity should not be my first thought, instead positivity should come first! So that is one thing I am working on ….I need to focus on being more positive versus negative!
I was introduced to ankle braces this weekend (maybe that sparked my negativity…it is possible…). My ankles were so swollen, my hands/hips/back and neck hurt so bad. But I survived and I got homework done! I am constantly amazed how I can still get things done despite the inability to have peace and relief from pain. Praise God for that, it makes me extremely thankful for the encouragement of my friends and most importantly for my faith. I could not do this life or what I do in life with out my faith and friends.
Alas though, statistics is calling my name! Be encouraged, don’t give up, fight the good fight tomorrow. I hope that our days come with less pain…one day! I hope 🙂