The cool thing about being in class is sometimes you never know what you are going to expect. When I went to class on Wednesday, I was pleasantly surprised. Not at how awesome my professor is but how great it felt to be learning the mechanics behind statitstics. My professor put it a good way. I am not there to be a statistician, but I am there to learn the mechanics and be able to read the outputs.
Doable, def. will take studying on my part but I think this semester will be doable. I spent some time today resting and then working on homework. I am really enjoying having scheduled office hours (e.g., working in my office) I think it is helping me gain some better writing skills as well as having more time dedicated to just getting homework done.
So far the events of the past few weeks have caused far more pain. I think that is related to stress. If I have learned nothing else….stress and Fibro/Rheumatoid Arthritis….they are not friends! Nothing new I know..but it is amazing how quickly I forget that until the next stressful event occurs! This is the first time (I doubt the last) that I am grieving while batting RA/Lupus/Fibro. And it is interesting the roller coaster of grief…on the roller coaster of pain. Now in the real world… I don’t do roller coasters…but that seems like an adequate word for describing what I feel ( or have been feeling) these past few days.
But you know, I think I have also found that I am a strong person. I have found that I can get up in the morning when I feel like doing nothing more than sleeping. I have found I can (for the most part) put a smile on my face and go through out my day. Yes, I realize I might not be as happy or bubbly but I’m present and attempt to be happy/smiley. That takes strength. It takes strength to get up and go through out the day when that is the last thing you want to do. I am a strong determined person.
I have dreams and goals, and despite the pain, the sacrifice of no sleep, I will finish this dream and hope to start a new dream. The power of dreams and goals! I did not realize how important those were…until now. If you have no dreams….find some! If you have no goals…find some! That will help you feel strong…when no matter what..you strive toward your dreams!