A short update tonight…well this morning as my clock says it is 2:27a.m.!!! YES 2:27a.m.! I have been working so hard on finishing two (2) of my two (2) page papers. I have one more two page paper to complete, and then I will focus on reading and preparing for a quiz. I have spent a lot of time this week in bed…and some of that time I have spent researching Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS). Apparently CFS is a sister to Fibromyalgia (which is a sister to Rheumatoid Arthritis and Lupus). Sjogrens (which I also have) loves to join the party too!! What a mess right!
I really think I’m battling some CFS issues..although there is not much I can do. I have been sleeping a lot…but of course that sleep is not very restful. I can take a 5 hour nap, wake up and be as tired as when I laid down. I am finding my body is just tired…my metabolism is down…among many other things..it is taking all I can give to get to work and get my homework done. I think additional pressure I don’t need is one of my professors is also my boss! That makes it is even harder (more pressure) to perform well.
Although tonight, I had to decide that I am going to do the best that I can do…just like I always do. I told myself I am a good student, and I told myself that regardless of who my professor is…I am going to do what I have always done. I cannot stress myself out to do more and be more than what I am…while I would love to impress my boss…I am going to do what I can do. I cannot let myself be stressed out to be the perfect student..write perfect, etc… because it will not happen! I will end up making myself sick and I cannot afford (literally and figuratively) to do that to myself.
The good news is I pushed through the pain and Fibro fog today to get two of my three draft papers done! I was able to get my long-term homework calendar done and now I have an idea of what I am going to need to do each week. I also found some things I need to apply to…more on that soon! Let’s just say I am excited! 🙂
I ask that you pray for me tonight, I ask you pray for strength to make it through this semester successfully. Pray for me to be a good student, to write well, and to keep up with everything despite this journey! I thank each and everyone of you…the many positive thoughts, prayers, and encouraging notes are so appreciated. I keep telling myself..I don’t do this journey just for myself…I know there are others out there who are battling like diseases and want to obtain an education (a doctoral education or any type of education). Normal people don’t realize the gift they have….even moment of energy is precious..I see that now! If you are in school (any type) and you are battling an invisible illness….my heart goes out to you! I pray you rest this weekend, I pray that your Fibro fog clears so you can study, and write your assignments. Hang in there! This journey is definitely worth it…no matter how painful it is! 🙂