Re-focus

Do you have moments during the week that you have to refocus or recharge? Do you make the choice willingly or does the choice get made for you?

This past weekend went in a blur, I came home worked three days…went to class…and then the choice to recharge was made for me! My body was sooo tired and that combined with bad Vietnamese food….landed me in bed for two days.

No not the way I wanted to spend my weekend but it was what my body needed. I’ve said many times the balance I have to live in life is a lesson I’m still learning. I want to go and go but you know my fatigue and pain stops me. I still get a lot done and I am so proud of that fact.

I wrote my Clark Scholar paper this weekend. It is now in the hands of my chair, with her help it will be edited and sent up! Wow! Then I wait until January to find out if I made it! What an amazing thing that would be to add another thing to the list! My list of things I never thought I could do with a crumbling immune system (rheumatoid arthritis and lupus), pain and never ending fatigue (rheumatoid arthritis, chronic fatigue, and fibromyalgia) and the eye side effects (Sjogrens). Trust me I do this as much for me as for you! I want no one to think life is over when you hear these diagnosis! Life isn’t over! Life can just be beginning, it has slowly begun for me! In the past two years, I’ve traveled to many conferences, become the schools SERA representative, and been the Barbara Jackson Scholar for one year, with one more year to go! Such incredible blessings and opportunities! Lots of work but all life changing!

So recharge is good! Let’s me think and most importantly I rest! Then I get up and get things done! I’m making progress on my study from last semester and on my research for this semester! Things will get done! Just don’t forget to balance!

Off to rest some more, rest today and recharge! And then let’s do some amazing things this week!

12 thoughts on “Re-focus

  1. Pacing is so difficult! I struggle to get it right so often. I very often don’t recognise I am overdoing it until it is too late, and the fact I get quite a delayed reaction doesn’t help!!

  2. Recharging sounds like a good idea. You’ve accomplished a lot, so you definitely need some “take it easy” time!

  3. Me too! When I have a good day I’m out to conquer the world–and then I pay dearly. Pacing myself is one of the hardest things I have learned, or more accurately, still need to learn. Congrats on all of your scholarly achievements, by the way!

    • Pacing is def one of the hardest things for me to learn! Gosh I will go, and it is all so fun. But I do need to learn to say no and take some me time. Thank you! I have been so blessed academically! Beyond anything I ever imagined! Never did I expect any of these accomplishments! I have some amazing faculty! Def going to pass on!

  4. This is such a smart way to think…. For me, after 30 years of living with chronic pain I still can’t seem to come to terms with my illnesses (still rebeling after all this time lol)….I am just now coming around after a forced “down time” of one solid month of complete rest, after I pushed too hard and ran myself into one gargantuan flare up. I am only now seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, and it will probably be another few weeks before I will be able to resume any normal activity. (I have severe foot pain of 10 year duration, as well as fibromyalgia & osteoarthritis) So let this be a lesson to us all…..we cannot out-run our illnesses. In order to maintain any sense of control over our bodies we absolutely MUST pay attention to the signals and choose to take time out to rest and recharge. Great post!!! 🙂

  5. The last week has been the same way for me. Thankfully, tomorrow I can take this heart monitor off after 10 days and sleep more comfortably.

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