Getting Real

Yes things are getting real! The dissertation proposal announcement came out today…I am still thinking on how I felt. I have pictured that moment in my head, of seeing my name on the list.

I think back to 2012, I just had started the doctoral program. I wasn’t sure how I was going to do….I knew it was super tough. Fast forward to now, I’m excited! I’m nervous! I want to do well and be successful! I’m scared about my future…what career will I have? Where will I go? What jobs will open up for me?

These thoughts hit me today when I saw my name on the list. I guess maybe because it became real? It is real, it will be real! In a few short weeks the second to last step to graduation will be done! May might happen! Insane how time goes by!

And yes I am proud! I am proud that despite immune suppressive medicine like MTX, Arava, and Imuran…I am making progress. I am thankful that despite major infections, I was able to get really sick on breaks but never in class. I am thankful that despite my Rheumatoid Arthritis, Lupus, and Fibromyalgia…in 2.5yrs of coursework I NEVER missed a night of class! I was always sick every other night but class night! I also pulled it together to make it to class and to make a 4.0GPA in my coursework! I made the 16hr days to go to work and then class after work! I don’t know how but it happened. So I am proud to share that my life has not ended with my RA, Lupus, and Fibro. In fact, in some ways I think my life is just beginning. I remember feeling that my life was over, the pain was so bad I could hardly think and move….but some how…I’ve made it this far! And for that I am grateful to my Lord, grateful for my faith, and thankful that many on this blog have been a witness to this journey!



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