You know are always aware of our bodies and the changes. Today I saw my rheumy…and we finally decided that I have yet another friend – Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. This friend on top of my current friends – Rheumatoid Arthritis, Lupus, Fibromyalgia, and Sgogrens. A nice list seems to be forming. I appreciated how Dr. T took the time to not just talk to me as a patient but as a researcher. We discussed journal articles on CFS (granted I need to do more on my own) and current treatments. Interestingly there isn’t much I can do for it, but learn to balance and things of that nature. It was an answer but not necessarily one that brought peace.
I also walked out with blue handicap tags. I have had red tags for like 4 years and while finally get blue tags is a relief (no more going every six months to the courthouse!) I was sad! I’m not ready but I guess my body is, and less waking and dealing with tags is a way to lessen some loss of energy.
Other than that day, I was also faced with the other evil enemy of my diseases – infertility. I have seen so many friends announce their awesome news of an impending new one on the way. And it is so heartbreaking to know that will never be my news (minus immaculate conception/miracle). I try my hardest to be happy for them, but deep down it hurts too. Another battle to fight in my journey of life!
And my life journey continues to show me that I just need to get up! And keep fighting…no matter than pain, fatigue, or heartbreak